The thing that happened to Marc is still so unbelievably horrible! Every day I have times when I just cannot believe it happened! But each day I also find more love from others out there, more about the case, or God’s plan for me during all this. My whole understanding of life will never be the same again, I’ll never go back to the same old ways, as my life has been enlarged, sharpened.
The purpose I knew I had on my life hasn’t changed but now I know the burden of pain/horror that many parents have faced. God the Father must have had tremendous pain as He looked out over Jerusalem and watched people kill His Son. I’m so glad He didn’t decide to abandon us but gave us so much thru a risen Lord.
I’ve often thought about how other parents are going thru their child’s death from murder, war, over-dose, suicide, drunk driver. I feel so fortunate to have the faith and support I do. There are parents around the globe who’re going thru pain and grief similar to mine. What about parents who aren’t Christian, who have no hope for an afterlife? What about parents who lived for their child, and now he/she is gone, and their lives are without meaning? What about the parents & children in refugee camps, or in the Ukraine? God has so much for us even after death or destruction. He has ways to help us live in peace in the midst of deep heartache.
The other night I was watching Christian TV and someone reminded me, ‘God will never allow you to go thru something you can’t take.’ How that eased my heart. A TV pastor James Mc Donald wrote a book, ‘Christians Don’t Die’. That’s a good way to put it …. Christians DON’T die! God’s love doesn’t leave us. ‘The Father has not left me alone.’ John 8:29