Dear Heavenly Father,
Okay, I’ve held on for three years now, have you noticed?
I’ve withstood the horror of murder, the underlying shame and pain ….
You know, I thought things were clearer …… and they are, to a degree …. but ….. the separation, the longing for Marc still trips me up bad at times!
‘Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for His mercy endures forever.’
I’m glad you’re there God, so glad you’re listening
I’m too private a person to cry in public for sympathy all the time, but this is still a hard cross to bear. I don’t want to bore others or have them wonder …. ‘haven’t you gotten over him yet’?
‘Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for His mercy endures forever.’
What do you mean …. ‘give thanks, Your mercy endures forever’?
I know this isn’t the ‘end’, it’s not the final say about Marc’s life.
Life marches on for the world, even without me.
But I can’t help asking …. would you allow Marc to visit me once again?
You understand me? Huh? God, do you hear me?
I can’t go on unless you’re in this?
‘Oh, give thanks to Me, My mercy endures forever.’
Okay, Father ….. I think I understand,
You’ll walk this out with me, every step of the way!
Your will wins, not mine!
Song: Pam Thum – ‘Love Sees’