God’s allowed me to have an unusual view of life from where I am. To look death in the face and go on to find blessing from suffering, healing out of pain takes daily trust. It ‘frees’ up my heart, energy to be above the constant anguish and the frivolous attitudes that used to identify…
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MAX Train Attack – Curbing Violence In Public
A comment on the recent stabbings in Portland, OR In my blog I keep up with some people and the news in Portland. Few days ago a man on a MAX (light rail) train stabbed 3 men, killing 2. The suspect had been yelling racial slurs at a girl in a Muslim hijab. A witness…
Happy Mother’s Day To You (And Me)
Happy Mother’s Day to you! I’m saying to ‘me’ too because it’s a hard day. I’m finding my ‘loss’ is still as deep as ever! Some of us are joyful on this day because ‘we’ are celebrated. Some of us are ‘mournful’ as we miss not only our mother but the children we were supposed to be…
Letter to Defendant Andrew’s Parents, Family
(I haven’t heard from Andrew’s family but have wished they would contact me. I was told twice by Nicole Jergovic, Marc’s D.A., that Andrew’s step-mom had contacted her with a message for me. I was told his step mom wanted to relay they were so sorry for my loss. She asked if she could write…
The Roller Coaster Ride With Lesser Defendant
It’s sorta indescribable what the defendants mean to me. When I first started writing about the case my pastor friends prayed for justice for Marc AND …. the defendants! My heart was so rapped up in pain, dealing with Marc’s affairs and relatives …. the court case! I wasn’t always able to feel compassion for…
Depression & Success … A Man’s View With Pirate David Freese
Since my son was murdered I’ve had alot of time to read and reflect on the ties between violence, depression and suicide among men … young or older. There are mounting news stories of stars, celebrities killing themselves. Something is so wrong here! People with supposedly everything to live for are taking their own lives….
An Altered Life
I think there’s a time in life where you start thinking, ‘well, now I’ve seen it all’! It’s a normal enough assumption we make once we get a certain amount of life under our belts. In some ways, nothing an entertainer, political figure or certain friends can say or do will surprise us anymore. Sometimes…
My Speech At Sentencing – June 3, 2015
(I attended the sentencing for the main defendant in Portland. Marc’s brother, dad and couple friends ‘attended’ via conference call. Most of this is what I prepared, (a bit here is hindsight), but it didn’t all come out this way as there was so much emotion and crying on the part of the defendant and I….
It Never Stops, My Son
I missed you so much tonight, sweetheart! I just stopped for a moment and started to go into a trance or something …. I couldn’t understand why you can’t come back and visit me!! Why can’t you come in the door, or chat with me while I fix dinner? When I’m at the gym I…
The Underbelly Of Life With Defendant
I never thought I’d be so concerned about a homeless guy, or want to blog about him! Not at this stage of my life. But … as most of you know, the defendants in Marc’s murder case were recently homeless at the time of the crime. The main defendant is in prison now but the…