It’s never boring dealing with the defendants after the crime. Each new stage of healing takes me to a place of more gratitude but also more awareness, cause I never thought life would be continually going thru flux due to Marc’s case like it is! I wrote letters to the main defendant for awhile. This…
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Lament For His Brother – 2 Year Anniversary
LAMENT FOR HIS BROTHER On one of his journeys, he passed by his brother’s burial-place. There he paused and addressed him as follows: “Is there a sea between me and you, that I should not turn aside to be with you, that I should not run with a troubled heart to sit at your…
A Detective Commander & Defendant
When your child is murdered, it’s good if you can separate your feelings from the facts. Not everyone deals with the subject of murder well or in the same way…. some cower out of fear of death, some fear dealing with their own demons …. there are various reasons for confusion or staying stuck in…
Blessings And Agony
I don’t want my readers to think there aren’t definite blessings going on in my life …. but, I still get jerked around by the crime at times. This period of Marc’s birthday and the anniversary of the crime are especially sad. The other night something happened that gave me a deeply panicked, sick feeling….
Happy Birthday, Marc!
Today is your birthday, Marc! September 30th! It’s a beautiful time of the year! One of my friends sent me a text this morning, ‘Happy Birthday, Marc!’ That gesture and another’s early text just made me feel such gratitude for the great friends I have. Marc’s best friend also just texted that he’d ‘talked to…
The Defendants Attitudes
Some things seem so private or too harsh to share. I’m still dealing with pain so deep or pervasive that I ‘don’t wish to go there’. I’m still trying to wrap my head around what kind of life is going on with the defendants as well. Even though Marc’s case is technically solved, it’s still…
Allowing Safe People To Mourn With You
There are certain life experiences that are memorialized in our minds and hearts, and death is one of them. Many of us consider death as being very sacred, like birth or marriage! Religious communities commemorate them with ritual. Some deaths we know are coming, but others are so unexpected or violent. In certain cases,…
More Arrests
I was having a nice Saturday morning a week ago when I got a hunch to google the ‘3rd’ suspect, one of the first two arrested in Marc’s case. Kinda freaky to find out he’d been arrested twice in the last 3 months. It doesn’t seem like he’s getting his act together! Three young men…
Son, Why Can’t U Come Back
Son, Why Can’t U Come Back I lost u two years ago …
Celebrity Deaths, Life In Heaven
I don’t know about you, but when I used to wonder what I’d put on my gravestone I often ended up laughing. Anyway, I usually find it interesting when people reflect on celebrity deaths. I know some of the comments are meant as a joke but some really are confused about what is good living…